唉

这种生活真的

委屈死了

原来

最难挨

的

感觉

就

是

受委屈

。

always

I am back on blogging,

for myself,

just to speak to myself more often.

Not many flourish languages,

not many extravagant usage of vocabs,

just simple lines....

Something that hasn't changed since young,

I always question myself,

where am I from? Why am I here? Who am I?

why am I doing this? Why I have to do this?

Why am I a human? and such...

I know it sounds silly but don't you ever wonder why?

I do wonder why...

But I am not going to spend my days on asking or seeking the reason behind it..

I will be missing out so many other beautiful happenings in my life..

I presumed that is what life supposed to be?

You can never predict what it is going to happen?

I am a planner.

I planned everything in advance...

this is the main reason why I am always exhausted....

I am always disappointed when things don't live up to my expectations...

I am always eyeing on another opportunity before I managed to grip the current firmly..

Hence I am always juggling on so many things...

I am just tooo scare...or fear of unpredictability..

as all I want is a stable life...

I once heard an old woman said:

" life can never be too stable, if it is too stable, that won't be a life..."

well, I kinda adapted a whole new meaning of looking at matters..

stop getting soooo uptight on every single thing...

Good news,

I am back on reading storybooks.

For once I am reading something non-academic or law related.

It brought me back to those olden days,

brought me back to the old me...

Have been listening to this song quite a lot lately...

love it <3

累了

累了

真的累了

想家了

真的想家了

哭了

放弃了

每天茫茫碌碌地过生活

是为了什么？

到头来

白忙一场。。

长大了

长大真的不好玩。。

肩膀硬了

扛上越来越多的负担

有人明白吗？

好怀念好怀念

小时候

简简单单的要求

就可以把妈妈逗开心

做一张母亲节卡

就可以让妈妈开心得不得了。。

长大了

母亲节卡

的意义不同了。。

一生中最大的心愿

就是让妈妈开开心心

所以我要很努力

很努力

很努力

的

变成功

好让妈妈有好日子过。。。

可是真的很不简单。。

跌倒了再爬起来。。。

已经不知道跌了多少次了。。

已经遍体鳞伤了。。

真的跌得累了。。

每次累了。。

想着妈妈。。

就会振作起来。。

想着

不能倒啊。。

你是弟妹的榜样。。

妈妈往后的好日子

都靠我们三人。。

唉。。

该回家了。。

可是为了前途。。

往往有做不完的工作。。

想妈妈了。。

真的很想很想妈妈了。。

mi

我很想你

为了你

为了弟弟

为了妹妹

为了家

我会努力。。

唉

又哭了

真没用

。。。

Ingrid Michaelson "The Chain" (Lyrics)

Mountain And the Sea Ingrid Michaelson

recognition

Sometimes, I do wonder why I have to explain and defend so much?
As if anyone care?

Why do I have to work so hard?
As if anyone bother?

At the end of the day, I am chasing after my own tail,
the whole thing is so pointless,
as I am working beneath my own shadow..

I think that is only one thing I am striving for..

recognition.

yellow